in with the new, out with the old

new year’s eve is 2 days away. it’s got me thinking tonight. i’m 16 weeks along. both of my kids seem to be doing good. my son nigel has been grumpy a lot lately. he’s fighting his nap a lot too. i wonder if it’s because my husband is home now too. he quit his job. i can’t blame him. i did it with my last job. i tried to stick it out as long as i could. but i hated the job, and it was getting harder and harder to get there everyday. no buses go out to the airport. Daren didn’t have that problem with this job. he just hated them breathing down his neck to sell. i get that. i can’t blame him. but the job did seem to be worth it in my opinion. Anyway…. So Daren is now home all the time. And i don’t think Nigel and I are quite used to it. When Daren was working, Nigel and i had our routine down. cartoons, cuddle time, and sippy in the morning. Then we get bathed and dressed for the day. If he got tired, he went down for a nap. I’d sleep with him. then we’d go run errands or just play til daddy got home. Now thats all screwed up. nigel won’t sleep. And sleeping is all i want to do. I need a break…..from him. i hate to say it, but i need to get out of this house and be productive. For once in my life…..

i’m frustrated.

if there is one thing i’ve learned in my marriage, it’s that open and honest communication is the key to everything. if you’re going to give someone permission to do something, you better make sure that  you are truly ok with it. if that person asked permission and you say yes, they will do it. they are going by your word. and you said go ahead. so when they go see that friend you don’t like, its contradictory to say you feel betrayed. you said go ahead and do it. if you have a problem with it, speak up from the very beginning. that way no one gets hurt.

 

happy thanksgiving!!!!!!

with thanksgiving in two days, i thought now would be a good time to shout to the world what i’m grateful. the first thing i’m grateful would have to be my son nigel. (thats the cutie in the pic.) i took him to sizzler yesterday just the two of us. in the pic he’s eating watermelon. but he didn’t like like the sweet juicy red part we all do. noooo. he had to have the rind. apparently chewing on that was the best thing since sliced bread. lol! he’s such a cutie.

2) i’m pregnant with my 2nd child. i’m nauseated, tired, cranky, with a hint of headaches. and you know what? i’m grateful for it. these symptoms are the only indication i have the my baby is ok. its to early for me to feel any movement, and i havent seen a dr. yet due to lack of insurance. so i take what i can get.

3) i wouldn’t have any of my children without the love of my life. my husband, Daren, was soo sweet to me this weekend. we didn’t get to celebrate our anniversary due to him starting a new job. so we stayed the night at a hotel this weekend. just the 2 of us. it was soo nice to b able to cuddle with him like we used to. he is soo good to me!!

in conclusion, i really think its important for us to remember the wonderful things in life that make it worth living. no matter what you’ve been through, even the sun coming out can make up  for everything else. HAPPY HOLIDAYS

sorry i’m late

please forgive me for not keeping up on my blog. i have had a couple of interesting months. i think my main message today would have to be faith. faith in anything. but i think everyone needs to have a little faith in something. it keeps your spirits up when your down. i will admit it sounds corny. but things are not exactly simple for me right now. and i think the only thing thats keeping sane is my faith in love. i believe love can overcome anything. it can survive death. sometimes all we need is love. my hubby came home last night after another bad day. he’s having a hard time selling and he’s thinking he’ll be fired soon. but he came home and cuddled with me. we made our little boy giggle that adorable little giggle. we loved each other. and for just a few moments, everything was ok. we were together. and right then that was all that mattered. i think little moments like that make up for everything else. 

Hello world!

never done a blog before. i will try to update things at least once a week. If not more. i’m using this as a personal journal. If you like my blog, great. If not, ok. This is mainly for my sanity.